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    Lostpedia.com takes up most of my time,

          I just wanted to note that it is officially my favorite time of year minus all the allergins in the air. I should have a phone today or tomorrow which I guess will be nice. How does Marshall Cox do it? He is 20 times more popular then me. Oh, and I plan on having a great summer so be ready to be physically active with me everybody.
Enough love and respect , the music is strong. PLAY ON!

                                                                                       -Bobby

                        It's been a long time(should I sing NFG or Aaliyah now?)

            HappyThankChristItsANewYearGiving everybody! I realized I hadn't updated this and then I realized something more important. This being that I miss people all the time and yet I feel like my time is always stretched for personal reasons. Me spending time on myself. This can include productive stuff like art, reading, or writing music. It also can include the "me time" where I get dedicated to beat a video game(Legend of the Mystical Ninja!!) or take a "nap" for 4 hours which I have just learned is not considered a nap. How long is the max for a nap?? I should wikipedia it. Oh, there is another place I get lost.

           I stray from my point. When was the last time Danny Minor, Shawn and I played Time Splitters? When was the last time Will made me laugh by making snidey comments at a restaurant? Did Jen Glasgow fall into a endless hole with Ozzie Smith?? I hope not. The sad thing is I don't even see my bandmates much besides shows. MIKE!!! Hang out with me! Be more productive then me!! Same for you Ryan if you ever read these things.

   
            Now I love my friends I see daily dearly and I don't want to see them less but every night since I remember I have either been in the Dynabros, Natdrewole's place, or my ApT. I usually have the bestest of times but I need some freshness in my life. SO, anytime anyone goes bowling and needs a ringer- call me. Anytime you are thinking, "Hey didn't we know people that used to live by us?"- call me. Anytime you feel an empty spot in your heart- call the medics. Then me and give me all the bloody details.

                                                Sincerely,

                                                      Somebody that I used to know.

          I am tired of being content with life. Who walks through life saying ," you know what I want to be??? Content." Well probably lots of people in their 30's and above but I sir, I am not one of these people. I have figured out my next two years in life. Maybe the arrival of 07'(can you believe it?) in just over a month scared me into this but I am happy for that fear. I will have to do some pretty lame things for the next 2 years which will include in no particular order: Less hanging out and partying, lots of drawing and thinking and drawing and redrawing, a temporary stay at my parents or any friend who can let me be a bum for a few months on their couch, and just general maturity.

        I wish so much to be like my friends but I am not. I cannot afford school, and my own place and life. I cannot even stand scholastics for the most part. It all seems to be just a means of proving to people that you could put up with bullshit from 4-8 years all while temporarily learning things you cram into your  head one day before a test just to be shot right out when more room is needed for a new test; or as a way to meet people you can climb upon and use to further yourself. I am sorry but I can't feel right doing that. I study what I love. I have books upon books about art, and philosophy and American policies. This is no excuse but if I want to learn something I will. I don't have time for useless things. This is not an excuse for laziness. This is the sad truth of my life..........

               Alright. 

        My weeks have been flying by which is a good and a bad thing. The perks being that I seem to have a lot of fun and there is constantly something to be done. No boredom or hum drum. The downfalls being that I stray away from my work and due to the time flying by it seems to make things go by slowly. Its alright though because I have till 8:30pm to work on things tonight before I go watch Weeds and be social. Yep!

      So honestly, what is going down on Halloween?? I've heard of about 10 things but I want to know where most will be. And I want to dress up. I still don't know as what yet. Maybe combining two of my ideas. Maybe a Mormon teddy bear? An overly hip Magneto? Or do concepts such as irrigation or cognitive reasoning. I'll think of something but until then we need to figure things out. I leave this to you, the people of the net. Help me help you see me in funny attire.

    I get to see Shawn and Will and the boys tomorrow. Contrary to what many think, I miss all those guys terribly. A night of catching up needs to happen shortly.

        Lastly, let me just say that if anyone knows a better living writer then Charlie Kaufman, I would like to hear about them. Have you ever realized how amazing Adaptation is? How it is based on a real life situation where he was asked to make a book into a movie(that couldn't be done)  and how Kaufman turned  in the screenplay thinking he would never work again? The way he does all these things that are so fucking witty and are often overlooked by people.Well not many critics but the average viewer. That sounds so snobby and pretentious but its not. Anyway, yeah I love him.

         Sorry I just had to say that. People can talk about Tarantino and Anderson and all these people, and yes they are amazing directors and he has yet to direct(till Synecdoche, New York comes out in 07'), but they have never written anything so good. This is of course all personal opinion but he is obviously a much smarter writer then anyone out. Right??

On November 19th(probably at midnight in the front of the line at Toys R' Us with Marshall) I will be buying something that will be SO SO SO...so so so... sweet. Yep. sweet in lowercase because I'm trying to hide my oober 10 year old excitement. I love Nintendo. Always making the best consoles.

      So after much thinking I decided that I will probably just post on this thing every month or less. I mean it is stupid to try to avoid online intercommuncational tools in the 21st century. Plus it will be hard to tear me apart from 101.1FM. Movement is off the chain. So much MJ, and En Vogue and jam cities to the max.

       The large part of my time lately has been spent either catching up on Lost season 2 or drawing. Or both. I have really been working hard at trying to do something in life that I want to do. I know so many people who like art and love doing a certain kind and seem like they will suffice with anything art related. That is fine for them but I know the one thing I really want to do and I am finally busting hump to do it. Well, besides yesterday because I had to watch Project Runway and fix a damn couch with a hammer. Hammer= fixed. Side note note relating to hammers or to Project Runway: My phone can't send calls but I can recieve them. It is pretty much how my life has always been but lately I've just wanted to pick up the phone and call some close people and I couldn't. It sucks.

        That is pretty much it. I have been very to myself lately and I hate it only because others seem to take it personally. I like being alone and drawing and playing guitar. Is that so bad?? Yes, I should try harder to socialize but if I don't feel like it, then it would just be a fake gesture. I feel a night of binge drinking and telling everyone how I really feel about them. Hello Saturday. Well I guess I will leave it at that.